Know This

I know where your mind-set
will take you, know what
you're thinking of, I know that
this intertia is uniquely
your own. Know what you're
doing, "not do" these things
elsewhere now I know you're
about to tell me none of this
is true, but the word "denial"
is written on the wall.
Snap this away from me.
You won't and I can't
live like this because you
drain the life out of me.
A tick, a leech, a parasite
that's taken it's toll.
You can't, won't, say you
will, then don't have half
a decimal of a point to
respect either you or me.

Best Buy just might turn out to be Dun Laoghaire's new best friend. The interview has turned into a 3-step process, with the first one ending with a very promising potential opportunity. Two more to go. Not often will an employer offer as much feedback, and I hear he was very impressed in terms of leadership experience and the fact that she knows a bit about computers.
So Laoghaire, if you're reading this...You go, girl, I'm proud of you! They'd be a fool not to call you back.

Well at work, the big guy is back from vacation, that would be the general manager of environmental services. And No one's heard anything from him yet about who might get the axe. I'm not all that sure if that would bother me. There was a time when something like that would cause me to panic but, hey. I know I'm an excellent worker. When I was still out there at Lee's Summit, the (same) GM told me I was a model employee. So even if a decision like that is out of his hands, he'll at least be able to give me a pretty decent reference, no matter where I go next. I guess we're still gonna have to wait till the 21rst to find out.

For some reason, I ended up missing Def Poetry on Friday and the Dead Zone on Sunday. The cable was messing up, plus there was all this stuff going on with concerts and hair color and all that good jazz. Or should I say "punk"? Which was all pop/punk bands, from nearby areas. Gatorface went first. These guys really had me laughing. Later somebody told me that they're not even a real band. But they're just as good as the rest of 'em up there that day. They've got this creative humor/dry wit type thing going on, which if they kept with that line of thinking, they could be the punk version of Spinal Tap. Let's see, some of the other bands... Of course, Without Incident which we were there to support. Arlington was good but couldn't stay. They had another show to play that night. There at the last, wast was Too Beautiful To Die. I'd have to say these guys kicked butt. I wonder how they came up wit the name, though.

I got some bad news today at work. At break I asked how he was doing, the kid that was in the car accident, and someone told me he didn't make it. It was on Friday he died. I guess by today everybody at work had time for it to sink in. And to be honest, I thought he might have had a small chance of pulling through, but I guess I was wrong. And I haven't seen his mother since Thursday when I talked to her before I had Friday and Saturday off. I hope she's coping with all this. It's a complete tragedy and what makes it even worse is that it could have been prevented. I want to just say to some of my friends I've mentioned this to, again, thanks for listening.
I can't dwell on this forever, so...
I was reading Beau Sia's webpage where he seems to have put out an open call for someone to rent out his room in Manhattan. I've mentioned earlier on another blog, that he's been on vacation in Scotland, and it sounds like he's become so smitten with the whole place, he wants to stay even longer. I tought that was pretty funny and I can't really say that I blame him for that. I know I'd probably feel the same way. If anyone wants to visit the page, I believe it's at beausia.com (I hope that's right. If it isn't, I'll post the correct site tomorrow sometime.
Well, Xanga is up to its usual mischief today. I couldn't access it when I got home this evening. Neither could anyone else. So it looks like my backup may turn into a regular destination. Its a shame about the Xanga, though. It has a lot of cool features that I was really getting into.
I got an email today from a friend back in Fresno who's also into photography. In his spare time he uses his photos (slides) as background for upcoming shows for local bands, friends of his. Haha, he worked on a photo of me, put together with a couple of different backgrounds. Kinda neat. If I can find a way to post these picture here, I'll be doing exactly that, postin' the pics. Speaking of pictures, Ifinished the roll of film in the digital (disposable) and was going to drop it off today but the place was closed, well it IS Sunday. But you can specify whether you want the images on cd as well as prints but that takes a couple of weeks to get back, it'll still be worth it. Laura says she can post them that way without having to use a scanner. Double cool!

Can't edit and repost after using different browsers? Oh curses on you, you... Dreamcast!

Didn't get done with Laura's hair color till after 2:00. All the while she's worrying about it being too dark. "My dad's gonna kill ..me". And me telling her not to worry, that I know what I'm doing. She didn't want to go too drastic. As it turns out, we seem to have not picked a color that was drastic enough. She says it looks the same as before. She's right, but if you look closely, there are some minute highlights. I think it's ok, it looked kinda blah before and now there is a richer tone. But she says she wants a darker color for next time.I guess I'll be going along to that show tonight. Ha, it's good that tickets are only $5. It's something to do. And they're not that bad, actually even though they haven't been playing as long as some of the other bands, Without Incident. I wonder what a poem would sound like if I used all the names of these local bands. Let's see..."So Fed Up after traveling along Rivendale, I saw that this adventure would not be Without Incident. Indeed, this was no Gametime, and ..." That would be something to look into, especially as ad for a show if by some chance they were to all be booked at the same location. Haha.I may have stumbled onto something here. Or not.

What did I get myself into? Laura is going to wake me up at 1:00 a.m. when she and Jason get home from the concert, and here's why: I promised I would help do her hair color for Monday when she gets her senior picture taken. Why at 1:00 a.m.? Because she also wants it done in time to show it off for when they go to the next show, where Without Incident is playing, tomorrow night. Still I have to ask "why does it have to be so early?" Fed Up is back from touring. I'm not supposed to say anything but the cat will out of the bag soon enough when all three of them report to work again at Hi-Vee. Lol.
"dun Laoghaire" will skin me alive but it's all probably moot by now anyway. They're to play their return show on the 18th of this month.
I'm gonna have to read up on HTML so I can get some color on this thing. Shoot, there might already be color, I just can't see it on this browser. I'd like to post some pictures once in a while too. Well I have to take 'em before I post 'em. I'd better get busy.

My weekend started last night, I stayed up late and woke up around 6 this morning. Two days off to run introspective and let time get away from me. I might go to the library, for a better advantage with some websites, may just take a walk around Sugar Creek and Fairmont. I'm taking my camara, that little cheapo disposable digital I picked up last week. It could very well return some decent pics, you just never know.
This is the news for now. Just a small entry here. Last night I couldn't get on my Xanga, and heard no one else could either, so in a panic, and having something important to post, I sign on here. And this morning Xangas back up and running. But I'll still give this one a try. Hahaha, two different weblogs on separate sites. Can you say redundant, boys and girls? LOL.

Hmm. Well I just tried posting something new and I've got it in the area manage posts, but I can't get it to show up when I click on view blog. Guess I'll keep exploring, I'll figure this thing out. Tenacious me. Lol.

Unspoken

Don't dare give up
on this one.
Don't let them tell you that
a decision must be made.
For as well meaning
as they seem,
don't let them tell you
there will be no hope left.
Even now when there is music
in this room, he is listening
to the favorites you brought from home.
Speak to him - he can hear you.
There it is still, in the present.
Look there, at your boy,
you can see for yourself
even now he stirs.
Don't let them hurry you
with time limits, with jaded voices,
desensitized, all for the sake
of an empty bed.
This isn't how its supposed
to be or how is has to be.
Don't let them make you think of
how unnatural it seems for the
parent to outlive the child,
but see here another day and
yet another has passed
and still he moves in his sleep.
Don't dare give away his time
to wake.

This is a brand new site for me. My Xanga is on the fritz and I'm going through internet withdrawals.
Maybe this might be an even better site, you never know. I do know this, it's gonna take a lot of getting used to. - Much like Lee's Summit as compared to Independence Regional. See what happens next.