Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Couldn't sleep, so I'm job-hunting online... feel like hounding those ppl I've sent applications to, on a daily basis by now.. it's been a week.
... Just found out last night. I talked to my daughter on the phone... asked how Ozzy was. They got rid of him... actually got rid of him.. I wonder now, why didn't they just do it when I was prepared for it, instead of delaying the friggin' inevitable.. Damn.. not Ozzy! Yep, Ozzy.
Was my buddy, huggin-cat. Maybe somebody'll take him home. :l

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Warhol's Pittsburgh

Ongoing rumble of dark, past
the snow and delays, decay of roads
and distance; how it falls away
with each view from a window seat.

Funny what you can remember
while the snowfall is still fresh-
that finally a clear Dio on this
static-ridden walkman coincides
with entering Pittsburgh...
Warhol's Pittsburgh
(means I'm closer still.)

But wait, savor that beginning
while there's still time to see it,
before it all flashes by in a series
of row houses built so close
together there doesn't seem room
enough to breathe, let alone paint.

They always said
it was the sameness of it all,
the daily grind of boredom,
the monotony and unchanging
life that launched a legend.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

From A Feeling That Simply Is

For what you are
for what you always were
and what you still hope to be.

Its for how you thirst
believing only in certain paths
so many times the hardest ones
to follow; the familiar ones,
and those still unknown.
But if there was one path
most cherished, I'd wish
it to be the one that
leads you to my heart.

Its all for how you dream,
to seek, to hear, experience
so much deeper than most,
still taking in all the knowledge.

This is how you are
my friend, my fear, my need.
This is how I love you.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Well, I finally made my big move, to Philly. It was a long bus ride, with a few delays. It began snowing while on a layover in St. Louis and we followed the storm all the way to Illinois, to the next rest stop. This is where the driver had to stop till further notice, all the sleet and ice on the roads. But to make a long story short. I finally made it... like I said it was a long trip and I was just glad to finally make it here.
The place is really nice, stores about a block away, library just across the street. :) and one of the city buses pass right by here. So everything is pretty convenient to locate... I still need to get some more info on all the routes, but I'm confident that once I can find my way around a lot better, I'll be good to go... I've updated my resume (as far as new address and all) and carry a copy of it with me wherever I go, so I'm ready for putting in new applications... That's about all for now.. more later, haha.... Take care people... This new year seems to be starting out pretty good for me, I'll certainly have to say that.

Friday, January 07, 2005

till Philly...

Yes.. It's not a dream. I'm actually going. :)

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Aha! Here's something I didn't know until five minutes ago when my friend Ginger called me on my cell. There's a huge ice storm coming in this afternoon, they're saying it may be just as bad as the last one we had a few years ago when half the city lost power for weeks..
I could be delayed getting out of here. Again.
I'm not getting on the streets with ice under snow like that, that's the worst. Maybe on foot for a short time, but I'm not asking anyone for a car ride that's for sure. Anyway, I'm hoping its not gonna be as bad as they're saying.. or it could be worse, just never know..
So.. if the power goes out. I'm probably gonna be stuck here for the next day or so.. Just wait and find out I guess.

But it can be both ugly and beautiful at the same time...

Sunday, January 02, 2005


Connections made
all the difference
here to be settled.
This ship has been
sinking for too long
so to make the trek once
more from the top
of the list, through
Sugar Creek, then Fairmont,
Maywood and on toward a badge
of seventy-two steps,
going forward and looking back
sketching on recollection, I
slip downstairs, steep ones,
eleven of them with that concrete
wall on the left and the moon
over my right shoulder.
Always looking up and back
making sure its still there,
who is still there
not still there.
The ghost of a yellow lab
alternately leading, then
following through fog
the entire way.
Five corners to go,
cross for the third time
and finally the grasp of a
door handle... Goodbye.
Yay. I survived 2004. Can I say the same for 2005? I want to say "the future's so bright, I gotta wear shades." But that would be really overconfident and completely unrealistic.
At any rate I did make the big decision to move and with any luck it will be the best thing. Really do think its the best choice I could make right now, given the chaos of last year.
My daughter turned 20 yesterday. Her Boston grandparents are still in town, and planning to take her to dinner this evening.
Meanwhile, extended family is having all the drama they can handle, starting off the new year. I don't see how they can live like that... just seems like everyday there's a new crises. Some ppl just need to simplify, and not dwell on the negative trivial.
Well, I'm still in the process of getting things ready to go, so I'd better get a move-on. Haha, no pun intended!
Hope everyone had a wonderful New Year's celebration and can look forward to peaceful times ahead.